I thirst to be made thirsty!

O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully  conscious of my need for further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made thirsty still.
A.W. Tozer

Pitty Party.... Table for one

Just as I have tried to make this Christmas less about me and more about Christ... Something happens and I am hurt and frustrated. I then allow my heart to become so angry and spend the remainder of my evening last night having a serious pity party for myself.

Oh how easily I get overtaken by my emotions (pregnancy doesn't help) and forget that Christmas isn't about me, it's about Jesus.  Though I am hurt and feel like nothing about this Christmas is going to be any sort of special I remember that the Lord is my father and he is all I need.

People in life with hurt you and let you down even your own family but the Savior he will never let you down.

 And my GOD will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in CHRIST JESUS Philippians 4:19


So today I need to go before the throne and ask for forgiveness. I cannot celebrate the birth of my savior with so much anger in my heart towards someone. Then I need to pick myself back up and press on to make Christmas about him and remember it's not about me. After all, I have already been given the best gift anyone could ever receive!

Looking forward to my life

Isn't it amazing how we are always looking forward to our lives and forgetting we are living them now?!

There's always something to look forward to. The arrival of a new child. The day they will sleep through the night. When they will first crawl and then walk. The day they will finally be old enough to talk with.

But then we blink and we missed the now. Always looking forward causes us to have to look back and realized we missed important things.

On Thursday night I watched my sweet little girl jump around on her hospital bed with a big smile. She had croup but you wouldn't have known it by the way she was smiling and talking. Shes such a trooper like that. I so often miss that when I have those days of feeling so frustrated with her ever growing stubbornness. Though I was exhausted and really didn't enjoy spending another night in the hospital, I was so thankful, I got to take her home and knew she would get better. She doesn't have cancer or any life threatening disease. But, she does have one thing and that is that she is consistently getting older and no matter how I try I will never be able to relive these days again.

 It's ok to be excited about the future because we know that God has great things in store for us but we just can't miss the present because it soon becomes the past!

Children aren't expensive

In short, children aren’t expensive; obsessive-compulsive consumerism is. Children are not a financial liability; they are (if you must speak of them in monetary terms) an investment (perhaps the only one truly worth making) in the future.



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I don't know how to celebrate Christmas

For the Past 23 years I have the spent Christmas in Florida with my parents and my Granny. With the exception of two years when we spent Easter there instead and the first year I was married I went down the week after christmas.

So for me Christmas is summed up with warm weather, the beach, eating christmas dinner outside, and of course spending time with my parents, sisters, and granny.


This year due to the fact that baby prince maybe arriving early we will not be going.

The one year I missed Christmas there with my family I was so depressed and the only thing that kept me from having a two year old size tantrum was the fact that King Los suprised me on Christmas day with a note saying pack your bags we are going to Florida next week.

You see when you get married and then have children you have to start your own christmas traditions. The only problem is I feel as if I have absolutely no idea how to make Christmas special let alone how to make it all about Jesus. With Princess Eli only being 16 months I feel as if she can't really understand much so what can I really do? So I prayed about it and today I came across this stirring blog post.

It's made me think about so much. So now I am giong to continue to go before the Lord and ask him how we can start making Christmas about him and his sons birthday.

So tell me how do you make Christmas about him?

Servant sums it up

The greatest among you will be your servant.
Mathew 23:11





The difference between a servant and a slave is that a slave is forced to complete their tasks and a servant chooses to do their tasks.


Doesn't that about sum up all God wants of us? Noone wants someone to be forced to love and serve them but we all want some to choose to love and serve us!



Are you a Slave or a servant?

washing the feet of the Lord's people

 No widow may be put on the list of widows unless she is over sixty, has been faithful to her husband,  and is well known for her good deeds, such as bringing up children, showing hospitality, washing the feet of the Lord’s people, helping those in trouble and devoting herself to all kinds of good deeds.
1 Timothy 5:9-10



What does it mean to be faithful to your husband? 


What do people know me for? My good deeds?


What does it mean to bring up your children?


Do I show hospitality? How can I do it better?


How can I wash the feet of the Lord's people?


Do I help those in trouble?


What am I devoted to? Good deeds?




Lord, Open my eyes.

May my Grave stone read:
 Faithful wife, Loving mother, Doer of Good, Welcoming and humble, a friend to those in need, Devoted to following God, Servant.

The question God layed on my heart....

Do people come away from you and your home feeling like they encountered Christ?