what if we crossed the reasons off

This so does not just apply to adoptions it applies to being used in any area of what God calls us to. Any area that God asks us to give up our American "dreams" for his dreams!

I am not going to lie I am afraid of what God is showing me. Going out of our comfort zone sounds sooo cool and watching people do it makes me heart beat with enthusiasm for them.  But doing it myself makes me feel all kinds of nervousness and selfishness.

Dream, Dream, Dream

God's plans seldom make sense. They often appear crazy, to us and especially to others.


We hear his voice calling out to us, to step out in faith. It's scary and we often ask "Is that really what your asking God?".  Have we heard him wrong? Was that really him?

Most of us get caught up in dreams. I think dreams and aspirations are great. But I am only human and can only see my plans not God's. I don't always know what is best. I just know what I want. So why is it that we are so willing to put everything on the line for our dreams? Follow your dreams everyone says! If you want it bad enough you can get it. Have you ever stopped to ask what God wants. Is my dream the same as God's plan?

You can find tons of books on following your dreams. Don't you know you will achieve true happiness if you follow your dream? Maybe I am wrong but I think we push to hard on the dreams part and not hard enough on God's plans. We are imperfect and for many of us our dreams change like the winds. We get a taste of success, fame, money and we know for sure that is what God wants for us. Why wouldn't he want us to be happy? Why wouldn't he want us to have money and fame?I think that when we only listen to our wants I believe we miss his plans. Or we choose not to listen because his plans often sound crazy and are hard. We want to be able to see the end of the story before we proceed with it.

I believe if we ask God he will see the desires of our hearts. He wants us to be happy and live a life full of peace, love, and Joy. It's just that he can see the whole picture and we can't. That means he always knows what best for us even if its not our dream!

Learned Truth or God's truth?

I never really knew what Grace was... They didn't preach it at the church I attended as a child.


I knew salvation was a gift. But then I thought you had to continue to earn it. I thought through somethings I saw lived out that really grace was just a word in a song. I thought that works were what saved you. Choices and never sinning where what saved you. I even remember thinking if I die now that I didn't know where I would go because I had so many things to ask forgiveness for.

I lived under this awful need to be perfect, live perfect, and never sin.

Then one day God blessed me with this amazing friend.  A friend that streched me. A friend that caused me to reavualate everything I thought I knew.


Salvation is totally a free gift. No exceptions!

Grace is extended to all who ask the Lord to come and be their savior. Nothing we do will ever be good enough to deserve God's love or forgiveness. WOW!

I still fight the battle often with believing that obeying rules and your actions are what make you good enough.  But I am growing everyday and God is constantly showing himself to me. So for now I am trying to relearn God's Grace. It's out of my comfort zone that someone would love me without me being good enough.

But what I have most grown to understand is that there is a difference between God's truth and a truth that you have been taught or come to believe. Sometimes on purpose or not we are taught things wrong or precieve things wrong. We are all human after all. So lets not take anyone elses word for it not even our own. Lets be on our hands and knees constantly asking God to reveal to us HIS TRUTH!

Is there something in your life you are holding onto that God is trying to tell you is a learned truth not a God's truth. Let's all ask God to show in what ways we are not listening to his truth or have been swayed wrong. Because all of us have so much growing to do. I know I sure Do!

But to each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ's gift.
Ephesians 4:7

Don't be afraid to ask!

God is a God of wisdom! He is wisdom and he gives wisdom.

He is not a God of confusion. If you truly seek him and his wisdom he will help guide,direct, and show you what he wants for you.

I have found this sooo true for me in my life recently. With the sale of our house and a new job I have been blessed with. (it's a work from home job for one of my closest friends)

Lets all seek God's will because though it may sometimes seem crazy and a little over the top he knows best and always rewards obedience. Just remember it is all in his timing.

If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. James 1:5

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Matthew 7:7

Happenings round here

First of all my computer has finally bit the dust. (God sure knows how to tell me I don't have time right now to focus on blogging.)

We are busy busy busy. We are in full swing with moving things to the farm. But, God has been so wonderful I actally don't feel overwhelmed I just feel excited to start this new chapter! God has been proving time and time again that if you are faithful he will provide for your needs!

 I know I need to get some pictures up of the farm and everything and of course of the little munkins because they are so big already. Especially Prince Jules who rolled over for the first time last night. He is so different In personality from Princess Eli. It's amazing to see their differences as he gets older.

Here's a little more to sum up this new phase in my life....
1. Why did I ever used to complain when I had to mow for 45 mins? Now it takes me atleast an hour and a half to two hours.
2. Speaking of mowing I am deathly afraid of being shocked by the electric fence while mowing. I am pretty sure this is what makes the process take longer.
3. Living on a farm is inspiring me to do all kinds of  "down on the farm" stuff. Like planting some veggies and other things. (Ash I'm still not getting a chicken coop, atleast not yet.)
4. I have accumulated lots and lots of things in my first few years of marriage. I need to clean out my closets!
5. We even have cows on the farm now. They are not ours but Princess Eli sure does enjoy to watch them.

I hope to get some pictures up soon and I will keep you updated as I adapt to my new life down on the farm.

Everyday should be good friday

I  was having such a hard time focusing on Good Friday and Easter. Of course I had planned so much for this week including a yardsale for yesterday morning. I was feeling emotionally and physically exhasuted and found myself constantly snapping at King Los. So we decided to watch the passion of the Christ as we often try to do on Good Friday.


I am so ashamed... ashamed I forget. Ashamed I tell others to do the hard stuff but I dont always do it myself. Ashamed I use my tongue as a weapon and not always as a device to build others up. Ashmed I don't always put God first.

King Los said to me last night as I sat distraught... You know we arent supposed to just remember what he did on today but everyday.

Hes right. It's great to remember on Easter weekend, we should celebrate and commemorate what Jesus has done for us. But let us not forget that because of what he did grace is extended to us everyday!! You and I no longer have to go to the temple to make a sacrafice we just have to go before Jesus and ask for forgiveness.

How great the fathers love for us!

Do the hard things

I didn't want to tell her that...


She sat with her head in hands, tears streaming down her face. She had been through so much and now this?! She looked at me and said... "Why is this happening to me? Please tell me what you think I should do!"


I told her... "I can't tell you what to do. All I can tell you is what I believe from the word of God and that you yourself have to look to God and in his word for the answers. But life isn't easy and God calls us to do the hard things!"

"My father will disown me and everyone will think I am crazy. Even some of my christian friends." She said to me.


We can't see the big picture. God can! We worry and fear. God teaches and encourages! We hurt and cry. God loves and catches every tear in a jar. We can't do the hard the things by ourself, but God Can help us!

The christian life is not an easy one. Its full of having to do the hard things. Things the world think are dumb and crazy and things even some christians think are crazy. But live by God's word and not by any man's word!

Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. Luke 22:31

Satan has asked to sift us all.. we can allow God to prove himself faithful by doing the hard things he calls us to! No matter the circumstance.... there is no excuse. We must do the hard things!


Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.
James 1:12